This week, I handed in my dissertation, and my last assignment (12,500 words later…) so now I’ve officially finished University! How crazy is that… I’ve said this about 5,000 times now but truly cannot believe I have been at Uni now for three years, and that I’ve got myself a degree (still yet to find out what grade, and officially graduate, but the work is all done for it!)
As usual, I don’t really know where this post is going to end up going, but I wanted to sit down and reflect on how i’ve been feeling this past week, as it’s definitely been a rollercoaster to say the least. Also, I feel that my blog is kind of like my online diary (except i try not to mention the really embarrassing moments in my life in this version of my diary… and yes, I do still have a diary)
This time last week, I spent an entire day in the library trying to get as much work done as I could, to make life easier for me in the run up to deadline day. It clearly worked, as I was able to submit my dissertation a day early, and my other assignment an entire week early, which if you know me, (or if you read my 28 thoughts I had on my first all nighter at uni post) you’ll know is pretty good going.
It was kind of a weird feeling once I’d submitted everything, as I thought i’d feel a massive relief and be really happy but actually it just kind of felt a bit empty. For so long I’d been in the routine of doing uni work all day and night, going to work, then heading to the library to force myself to do more work, and once it all was over, it was a bit like, well, what now then?
Now it’s all been over for a few days, I do feel way more relieved, and now I can do all the things I was doing to procrastinate, like watching YouTube videos, Netflix, endlessly scrolling through Twitter, going to the beach etc etc, without feeling guilty about it, which is pretty great.
My plan to keep myself busy and not turning into a hermit crab, was to try and find myself a full time job over summer, to save up some money for when I’m doing my masters next year, but as it turns out that all happened pretty quickly as well.
I’d applied for literally about ten jobs in one day on Thursday, I woke up on Friday to a voicemail from a company asking me to phone them back, which I then did, and was asked to come in for an interview on the same day, which kind of freaked me out as I like to really prepare well for interviews to help ease my nerves, but I didn’t have any other plans for the day so thought I may as well go.
I had the interview, which honestly I thought went awfully, I’m pretty sure at one point he asked me a question, I forgot what he said, stared at him blankly for a while, and then just said “sorry” but nonetheless, must have done something right as I got a phone call on Friday evening offering me the job!
It’s all happened so fast I feel like i’ve barely had time to breathe! But in a way, I think it’s kind of good because it gives me less time to over think things and stress myself out about it.
One sad thing about getting the job offer so fast (which I’m really not complaining about, and extremely grateful for) is that I had to hand in my notice at my current job this week-end which made me so sad.
I love everyone who I work with, and I feel like i’ve made some great friendships so it will be really sad to not see them every week, but I know we will all keep in touch as we all live in Brighton. It really isn’t about the job sometimes, but more about the people who you work with, and I’ve definitely found this at my current job.
But whilst it is really sad, change is scary but also good, so I’m hoping I’ve made the right decision! Only time will tell I suppose.
Going back to finishing University though, I feel proud as well. I remember wanting to drop out of Uni in my first year because I’d gone through a really shit breakup, and I remember being so grateful to my best friend Abby, for metaphorically slapping me round the face and telling me to keep going and not be so stupid.
I also feel proud of the person I’ve become. (Just threw up in my own mouth a little bit at how cringe i sound) but I think i’ve really grown at University, I know i’ve gained so much more confidence in myself, I’ve challenged myself, and I’ve made amazing friends who will hopefully stick around in my life for a long time! First year Lauren was a very different person to Third year Lauren, but I’m very glad it’s ended up that way.
It’s also a bit bittersweet, because I’d have loved to finish Uni at the same time as Abby, as we started together, but she’s currently jet setting over America (she’s nearly back though) and next year, when she’s in my position, I’ll still be at uni doing my masters so we can pretend we finished Uni together anyway.
Honestly, can’t think of much more to say about finishing University. It’s been a bit of a whirlwind week, big life changes are happening which are scary, but equally I think exciting.
948 words later, if you’re still reading- thank you hahaha! And also, if this post has shown me anything, it’s that I r e a l l y need a haircut! Immediately, some may say actually.
Still can’t believe i’ve finished University- don’t think it will ever really sink in though…
Thanks as always for reading my rambles,
Love, Lauren xx