I haven’t planned to write this blog post at all, but I’m currently sat outside on my campus, and am feeling the need to write some thoughts down. I guess we could call this a life update, but at this point, I have no idea where this is going to go.
I’m currently sat in the shade mostly, because I’m ginger so burn even if I look at the sun, and I’m drinking an iced coffee (which tastes amazing and is a new discovery of mine) and i’m just thinking about life. Probably to avoid doing uni work, but also just because I think I need to just step back and reflect a bit.
|My current set-up, also I have my legs out for the first time this year, and they’re so pale, and I forgot to shave them but hey, living my best life…|
I’m in such a good mood today which honestly makes a welcome change. I don’t know if it’s just because the weather is beautiful today, and it’s my 21st Birthday this week-end, so I have a lovely weekend ahead of me, but all of a sudden i’m feeling very positive.
The last two weeks I haven’t felt like myself at all to be honest, and people keep asking if I was okay, and I’d say I was fine, because that’s what I always say, but somethings just been off and I can’t put my finger on what. I think its probably that I feel very stressed out, but I’m trying not to show it too much, and to just deal with it all on my own, which clearly, does not work. Also i’m really not enjoying my living situation this year, which piled on top of third year uni stress is probably not helping me out either. All of this alongside the stress of trying to save for car insurance, MOT’s and rent and bills, i’m just one big ginger ball of stress at the moment.
I have my Dissertation due in less than a month now, and another assignment which is due the same day, and in a weird turn of events, I’m not actually leaving everything until the last minute at the moment. I am determined to avoid an all nighter in the library again. I actually made the effort to go and talk to my tutors at uni this week, because I was feeling a bit overwhelmed and lost and felt like I just needed someone to shake me out of this weird funk i’d gotten myself into.
Luckily, my dissertation supervisor was so lovely and let me just ramble on at her for about 30 minutes, and she just made things seem way more easy and simple then I was making them out to be in my own mind. I need to get my head down now and actually write it, but in a weird way, I’m kind of looking forward to it. My dissertation is all about the use of targeted advertising on Facebook, and because FB is in the news at the moment, I actually have quite a bit to talk about.
In terms of living situations, I just keep reminding myself it’s not for that much longer, and next year I’ll be living in such a nice flat, with a lovely view, with people I actually like, and want to spend time with. Yes, it’s a bit more expensive, which is freaking me out a bit to be honest, and it’s a bit further out than I currently live now, but I’m feeling positive about it, and am trying to organise things ready for next year. I’m also waiting to hear back from my masters application, so I’m crossing everything I have that I get accepted for that, because I really really r e a l l y want to do it!
I just feel like recently i’ve been so down, and in such a slump, and I just don’t want to feel like that anymore. I’ve been trying to wake up earlier so I can get more done in the day, I’m planning out my days one day at a time, so I can set myself realistic goals, and I’m still finding time to spend time on the beach with my friends. Which is amazing, and when the weather is nice, I feel like I fall in love with Brighton all over again. I think sometimes it just helps to just take a step back, and not try to do so much all at once.
|Can’t beat a sunset on the beach!|
Usually, I’ll plan out the week ahead in advance, but recently where there is so much to do, I’ve been just taking it one day at a time, and I think that’s working better. There are still things I need to figure out for next year, like a job, money situations etc etc, but I feel i’m in a much better mindset to do that now.
In less than a month I will be finished with Uni, which is so crazy, scary and exciting at the same time. Hopefully in a months time I can update you again and everything will be fine and dandy, but we will have to see about that one.
|My new discovery of caramel iced coffee is probably dangerous…|
In terms of my blog, I’m really loving it at the moment. I have a few posts scheduled, so when I’m in the midst of dissertation stress I can still have some new posts going up for you, and also for my Birthday I have asked for a new camera, so hopefully if I get that, I can really up the quality of the photos on my blog, which I’ve been wanting to do for so long!
I feel like this post was really rambley, but I needed to get some things off my chest. If you’re feeling really stressed and in a slump yourself, I’d say take some time out, re asses what needs doing, and just take things one day at a time. Set realistic goals as well and try to stay as organised as you can! Also tell your friends or someone you trust about what you’re worried about, and they can try to help you as well!
I’d better get back to actually writing something productive now (also the sun has moved so now I’m not in the shade and am probably already burnt), so thanks for reading, and I hope you enjoyed!
Loads of love,